Tuesday, August 9, 2011

At A Crossroads

Since I knew surgery was not an answer for me, I decided to seek out the alternatives:

I never really liked doctors.  The furthest I could stay away from them the better.  After talking with my mother we decided to try going to a chiropractor.  He did a series of x-rays, analyzed my spine, and said that chiropractic care could help, but to make sure my scoliosis didn’t progress further I could no longer do certain things.

Tennis was out because it was too one-sided.  Anything that would not be beneficial for my back would not be good.  I was allowed to do Yoga because that would help my muscles stay strong.  Throughout High School I was not really able to participate in gym class.  I had to always make sure the exercise I did was something that would benefit my spine.

I still swam, rollerbladed, rode my bike.  I no longer participated in dance classes.  I learned to do Yoga and really enjoyed it.  I learned that I could somewhat control the pain of my scoliosis through exercise.

After I finished High School I found out about a new type of exercise, Pilates.  I thought it would really help my spine.  I started doing Pilates, but unfortunately even though I enjoyed it I started to find that I would actually injure myself during sessions.  I had quite a few occasions where I had to hobble into the chiropractor’s office because my entire spine was black and blue and I could not move!

As the years went on I became disillusioned with traditional chiropractic care.  I wasn’t seeing any improvements with my scoliosis.  It was still progressing.  I was still in pain.  I knew exercise was good, but I didn’t want my scoliosis to keep progressing because in the back of my mind I still heard that orthopedic doctor telling me I would die.

Now I had a computer.  I could do research.  I started looking into scoliosis treatments.  I found a doctor who claimed he could straighten the scoliosis.  My mother and I made an appointment with him.

We went to his office.  He explained how the procedure worked.  I would be strapped into this apparatus that was custom fitted to my body to help straighten my curves.  I would hang in this for hours while somehow it would push my muscles and spine into the correct position.  I would need to come everyday.  And it was expensive.

My mother and I discussed this treatment.  We didn’t think it would really work, but we could try it for a bit.  We were on the fence about it.  I was so desperate.  I was twenty years old.  I wanted a straight spine.  I didn’t want to die.  I didn’t know what to do. 

Again, I found myself at a crossroads.  What should I do?  I will admit there were times I had thought about the surgery:  What if I did it?  Would it be better?  Was that orthopedic doctor right?  Was surgery really the only answer?  Luckily, I never really took that voice in my head too seriously because little did I know an answer was about to come my way and fate was about to step in.  Tune in tomorrow for more of my story :)

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